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I had a dream where I was driving somewhere and then I totally forgot where I was going. I tried to call my friend who I was meant to be meeting with in the dream, except my phone dialled an overseas phone number by mistake. Because of this, the phone sort of stopped working.  I was relying on the phone for navigation, and while it was fussing around trying to dial the number, in my confusion, I had driven into a massive body of water. Really far into it. To my left there was an endless grey wall. To my right, still, lifeless grey water stretching as far as I could see. Above, a vast grey sky.
The phone no longer had reception.
It seemed that there was no way back and no point going forward or outward as no destination could be seen.
I was standing at this point in the water, and the water near the wall was shallow, I looked down at my feet, and saw that there was something underneath and started scratching at it.
The surface was soft and flaky. Kind of a rubbery substance. It was actually kind of easy to dig at.
And I was able to flake away something, that looked like it was uncovering a hole or tunnel, maybe some way to get out. I felt pleased at myself for finding this.
I wasn't sure if this escape route would just fill with water but it seemed promising.
Then I woke up.
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  1. Risa Kerslake8 April 2019 at 19:22

    So crazy!!! I've always been fascinated with water in dreams. I've had dreams of HUGE bodies of water. Like, huge rolling waves, bigger than anything in real life. It's freaky and I have them every so often, so that has to be a reoccurring dream or something, right? Your's sounds so interesting. And don't you hate when you haven't "finished" the dream and you wake up?

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    1. Inexplicably Missing10 April 2019 at 16:11

      Hi Risa- I have been recording my dreams a bit lately and have found that water is a recurring theme recently. So is driving - very much so. In my dreams the water is generally still, clear. And it's interesting to notice this after my thoughts on "leaking" (in prev blog post). So I looked up some dream dictionaries and the take on water varies but often signifies emotion. I tend to be a very calm person so often the water in my dreams is calm and clear. Although in this dream I think the water seemed to be sadness. OH and the crazy thing was when I looked up a dream dictionary, one of the first references about water says "Water is a symbol of life and fertility"....

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