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Can't believe it

I really can't.

I *AM* actually pregnant.

I did not believe I was pregnant when the nurse told me that the first test was positive. Nah. It is a low reading. If anything I was annoyed because I really wanted to stop taking all these medications I'm on. I also didn't believe it when the second blood test was positive either. The reading was still low, and I had to go back again for a third test. I only believed it when the doctor said the words to my face. My partner... he just cried. We were overwhelmed. We really believed that this was not possible. We were really expecting some kind of bad news.

Of course, I still feel incredibly wary, and still rather in disbelief... but excited, amazed, joyful...

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  1. Woo hoo!!!! Congratulations!!! Wishing you peace during this time.

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    1. Thanks Risa! So far, doing quite well on staying peaceful!

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  2. Congratulations! I had to laugh at your disbelief. I am sure we can all relate. It is normal to feel wary. But my advice is to embrace the joy and excitement.

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  3. Thanks Mali. You are right, I think I might as well embrace the good feelings!

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  4. Aw that's so great! So happy for you both! Hoping you will have a smooth pregnancy

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